again, it's been a while. was just enjoying my christmas break. i go back to school on monday. going to finish off my year doing general arts. trying to love it up. over my break i did a whole lotta nothin'! and it kicked butt. ive been kinda busy this week tho. i had to get this crazy heart monitor put on the other day but its off now. it sure was a pain in the ass. i'll tell ya that much. somethin's wrong with the ticker. nothing too serious tho. i'll be good. nothin a little surgery wont fix :P anywho, i think ive decided what program im going to switch to for next year. i'm gonna go get my MCSE. i'm gonna be a Microsoft Certified Systems Engineer. crazy eh. who'd a thunk it??? not me thats for sure. for now tho, i gotta find a job. ive definatley been unemployed for like 9 months... thats insane. as much as i've loved it up and taken advantage of not working to the fullest extent. i need money. some friends and i found this house out in the boon dogs. its got a sweet beer drinkin porch. and its cheap rent. its closer to my school, so thats a pretty sweet deal too. plus you can only get there on gravel roads. no cops are gonna bust up a party out there. no way. no how. thats all for now.
peace

hey all
so im in my third week of school. its pretty cool. not too hard, meetin' some fun people. doin' lotsa work. second day of school i tripped up the stair in the cafeteria infront of everyone and did a face plant and dropped all my stuff... everyone started clapping and yelling good one! so i got up and was like "YEAH" just so i didnt feel like such an ass... it was pretty halarious. i was supposed to move out a little while ago, but we got screwed out of our place... they decided they didnt want to rent to students after all :P pretty shaddy... but we found a place today thats pretty kick ass. so we're gonna take it and move in for october first. pretty pumped up. just thought i'd drop a few lines! heres a pic of me from the wknd drinkin' at my cottage with some buddies... my eyes kinda look all glossy drunk life :) ahhh! the life of a college student :P anywho gotta get up at 6... woooo!!! exciting! later

im not big on change... but sooner or later things do change... you have to grow up and move on with your life. i start college next week. and i move into my new place a day before i start. things are going to be pretty hectic. i got a three bedroom townhouse a ways down the street from my school. im sharing a place with my buddies mel-hole and murry... i dont like having to leave my mom in our house alone. bah! i hate being the youngest. but i have to grow up and do things for myself. im gonna study my ass off all the time, and hope that i can get honours or something so i can get into a sweet university. maybe get a scholarship or something... thatd be cool. its a good thing that my roomates like to clean and they know how to cook. otherwise i'd have the most unclean place ever and i'd live off toast. probably burnt toast to boot. well hopefully things will work out for the better, and i'll be fine living away from home... and i wont be the hopeless case in college that i was in highschool... welp... wish me luck all... gonna go pack up some junk.

so i hate to say it... but summers almost done... few more weeks and then back to reality. i havent been in school for a bit more than a year. and its almost time to go back. freaky. its gonna be crazy. i know that if i dont start college now... i probably never will. so im forcing myself to go. which will be a good thing in the long run for sure. i just wish there was a way around it. hahaha. its also kinda sad... all the ppl i grew up with and have been hanging out with my whole life are starting to move away. we wont get to see each other hardly ever, which is really shafty. all i have to say is im gonna be doing a lot of driving on the wknds all over the place... and i hope that everybody has e-mail :P
this summer has been sort of productive. i havent worked at all... but i saw a lot of concerts. and i got to chill with my brother derek for a week in t.o. so that was sweet. my brothers pretty kick ass. always comes up with these crazy cool ideas. and is full of fun and interesting information... like how you can buy sweet ass light sabers that do all this crazy fun stuff for only like $700 american. hahaha. but yeah... we went to the stones concert in t.o together which was a kick ass time. spent like $50 bucks on water alone! nutty. then afterwards we got stuck in the 500 000 ppl hurd... shuffling down the street and ended up walking for like 500 hours. good times. anywho yeah... hopefully i do some more fantastically fun things before summers done and im forced to grow up again for another 10 months. bah. okee welp im off to bed, just thought i'd write a bit. and on the note of me going to bed... heres a pic of me waking up! hahaha i thought it would be funny to expose the morning me for all to see!

hey all! went to SARS STOCK yesterday! hahaha sars stock... i cant even believe they were selling t-shirts that said that... anywho yeah. me and derek went, it was pretty cool. its fun hangin with my bro :) hes silly! i dont know how the heck he stood for 12 hrs straight. i had to take sit breaks every so often. ac~dc, rush and the rolling stones were definatley my fav's out of the day. they were kick ass. in total i spent about 50 bucks on water. thats just insane. and none of my bottles got thrown at justin timberlake... he wasnt worth my water. i kinda felt bad for him, how he got boo'd soooo hard. but man, he was just singin to the wrong crowd. we were all there for some rock and roll and he came out singin "cry me a river" i just wanted to be like "cry me a river when you get knocked out by one of those bottles of water aimed at your head" and for all those folks who just kept whippin em at him when he was singin with the stones... you are brave, i definatley didnt have the balls to risk hittin one of the stones. keith richards almost got pegged and he was right pissed. anywho yeah. it was a good time for sure. hahaha derek got a lot of sun :) i didnt burn tho... kinda peeved... i want a sweet tan, but im never outside enough... then when i am, the sun doesnt wanna show any love :) anywho out fer now, more later. peace

k so the cops came and just left... i misjudged them i guess... they were really nice, and helpful. i guess muggers with the description i gave them were reported yesterday as well... in the same area. what stupid criminals eh. for real. even though the chances are super slim... if i ever see those f*$%^^# again... im gonna whoop them sooooo hard! anywho its been a long ass day... i dont care if its super bad for you, im goin outside and im smokin cause im stressed... and im gonna luv it too!
have a good night, be safe, and dont walk around t.o alone... even in daylight! oh yeah and tomorrow... give homeless ppl your spare change... cause this bum by the doors of the subway on yongue and queen asked me why i was crying... and offered to pay to get me home on the subway. that was the nicest thing ever. there still are some strangers out there that arent out to get you. i love that bum, if i ever see him again im gonna give him like 20 bucks... k bye again...

im visiting in toronto for the week, staying at my brother dereks. i havent been here in a long time and today i was just tourin' around minding my own business... and i got mugged. these four guys prally thought it would be fun to pick on an innocent girl, walking alone. they stole my purse. luckily they just stole my tin with 60 bucks in it. they tossed my purse down the street with my digicam, cell phone, and a buncha other stuff... they knocked me down pretty hard though. my legs kinda beat up a bit. im right pissed. and i wont even see them ever again. so i wont get a chance to beat them down. see if this had happened in petrolia. i could just ask them the next day "man why the hell did ya do that?" cause you always see everyone in petrolia all the time. everyone knows everyone. and everyone knows where everyone lives. but here... its a different story. i got screwed and theres nothing anyone can do about it. i called 911 like 45 minutes ago, im at dereks now. they said they sent a cop here to take a report and they'd be here in like 10 minutes. but nope... still not here. takin' their sweet ass time i guess... like seriously, if i had been badly hurt and was like bleeding somewhere on the sidewalk, i'd prally be dead by now, cause the cops just dont seem to care. well maybe thats not accurate but thats how i feel right now. im just pissed off... anywho... report back later.

hey tiggers! so im finally comin back to t.o to visit. havent been there to chill since the march break before the march break that passed... thats a long time. i havent even seen any of my tig buddies since last summer when everybody came to my cottage. theres so many things i want to do... and so many people that i would love to see. when the train drops me off in t.o im gonna go straight to the office... cause thats always what i do when i come to toronto... straight to the office :) im gonna try and get tickets to that concert in t.o on wednesday too so me and my bro can go. thatd be pretty sweet! pumped up fer the rolling stones. that'll be killer! anywho got some stuff to do. see you guys soon!
~breslin~

so im going back to school in the fall, and im absolutley terrified. have any of you taken time off school for reasons beyond your control. and then decided to go back? was it super hard and scary for you? or am i just worrying myself over nothing. i took a year off due to too much stress. i have a heart problem that gets a lot worse when im stressed... and its pretty bad. i cant even work right now because of it. its not good for my health. i took a whole year off school. i didnt finish highschool. but i wrote my entrance exam a few weeks ago so i could get into college. im just going to the college in my area. Lambton College. im gonna do two years in general arts. just cause i have no idea what i want to do with my life yet. then i was kinda thinkin about going to university and studying IT after college. i know that if i dont go back to school now... i never will. and that wouldnt get me too far in life. definatley not where i want to be atleast. im so terrified its not even funny. i just had the worst highschool experience ever. i hope that college is different. PLEASE HELP ME CONVINCE MYSELF THAT EVERYTHINGS GONNA BE FINE!!! the more support i get... betters the chance that i'll succeed! plus theres all this stress over getting O.S.A.P to help me pay for school and my place, cause i'll have to move out to be closer to school. my parents are fighting about it, and they're involving me. and its stupid. and its really pissing me off.
anyways... nuff talk about the stuff thats stressing me out.
heres a pic of me and my bestess guy buddy j scott aka.jbone. arent we just the cutest ever, sportin' up our metallica tees!
more later...

thursday a bunch of us drank at my buddies house by his pool.it was beautiful out.then we went to the squire.which is a little half ass hick bar in our town.its karaokee night thursdays.and i sung brown eyed girl.it was pretty halarious.then i went to summer sanitarium on july 4th at the silverdome in detroit.mudvayne.deftones.linkin park.limp bizkit.and.metallica.it was great.me and a couple buddies bombed down there.quite the trip.i got kicked in the face by a crowd surfer during metallica.and fred durst shook my hand.ive always wanted to see metallica.and i finally did.which is sweet ass.for sure.i'd get kicked in the face to see metallica anyday.they did two encores.i got home at like 4am.tired as hell.i had mosh pit tickets.so i was surrounded by like 30 000 ppl on the floor.all jumpin around.bashing into each other their hardest for 10 hours.believe me.it was hot in there.we almost got in like three car accidents on the way down there too.not used to american highways yet appearantly.also.nobody at the concert new how much canadian money was worth.so everything we bought we had to pay double for.$6 water.$8 hotdog.thats terrible.so that was friday.then saturday i was at a party.some ppl from my past showed up.it didnt go over well.a fight between them and my friends brewed up.i tried to break it up.got punched in the face.kinda bruised.kinda pissed.fightings definatley not cool.plus my ex-boyfriend from like three years ago showed up.and was being a stupid jerk.so that was just fantabulous.so friday was excellent.saturday was fun till nearing the end of the night.and tonight...well tonight.im totally the sickest ever.5 hours sleep in 4 days.and a really bad cold.that sucks.so out of this wknd i got a t-shirt.wrist band.and a bruised face.so that was my wknd.wonder how interesting next wknd will be.